I feel upset.

I noe u have been great. I wish I have not been so curious, if I knew I will feel like this. For that moment, I felt I was completely out of ur life, and someone (a few people) have replaced me, and I am watching you from afar. :( My heart stopped beating, trust me. I felt bad.

The worst feeling.....that I have this impression that I entered ur life accidentally....that it was too easy. That I do feel that if I were to become part of ur memory too, I probably stand low. Where has all my confidence gone to?

I am at my ugliest when I lose my confidence. I feel "small"......and unimportant. Nobody caused this to happen to my heart. History did. Does history matter? Can I erase history.....or maybe, I shld try harder, to replace those beautiful memories........with even more colorful and better ones?

Do u think I can?