A long weekend, yet I have no plans. I hvent been feeling very good, or rather very stressed. Firstly, by dance...isn't it supposed to be enjoyable? Recently no. I don't know if I lost the passion, but the answer is likely no, cos it is in my mind more often than before..so much so that it is drowning me. I feel inadequate, and I wonder why I confuse myself the more I think through the dos and donts. Sometimes, I wish I can just let go, and just dance... Enjoy the
music, the beat, and the movements of the body. Isn't it what dancing is all about? I'm splitting hair over dance... Craziness.

I m also a procrastinator. A serious one...and over time, I feel frustrated and depressed when things don't get done and pile up to an extent you'll never be able to catch up with. How how howwww to kick this habit? Writing 1001 to-do list just doesn't work, I just end up with never ending reminder notes which I just shove aside at the end of the day... And simply tell myself "don't care la!!!". This makes my life in a mess... :(

I can't seem to get enough rest. And is it due to my hectic schedule that I lost that time to take care of these seemingly small things, which prove to be detrimental to my life? I so wanna breathe...

Or is it just the mind? Too anxious that when certain things appear to take too long to complete, I simply leave it aside in order to save time and end up not doing at all... And then hate myself for being a procrastinator?

U see... The list goes on and on. Help!!!!!!


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