Dance seems to be going nowhere. I know what I want, but I can foresee I may not be able to achieve it, at least not in the short run. Things are going too slow, at the kind of speed that I can no longer take. I feel like giving it all up.

Don't ask me what happened, or why. I don't feel like considering anybody's feelings anymore, except for my own. I know what makes me upset or disappointed, especially when hopes are lifted a bit, I realise it is just an illusion. I find that I know best as to what is good for me. I shall try to re-affirm this.

Giving it one last chance. After that, it will be final.