Nobody seems to understand my position except for that someone. Probably that is the reason why I am so upset to see her go, cos there won't be anyone who can really understand. The unnecessary attention is not doing me good, but making me very glum. I lost my usual cheery self, in exchange for a heavy heart. I don't want to be part of the "rubbish", and be manipulated by anyone...but I know it's gona be hard. I find myself losing control, and insecure. Sometimes, "butcher" and his "butcher frens" send a cold shudder down my spine. Can I just be true to myself??

Somehow, me and my twin are at our "lows". Both cried yesterday. I don't know how to comfort her...cos I am at a loss too. She seemed to be having this friendship problem with toxic friend...I think I understand. U bring someone in, and that someone make herself more popular than u. Girlish issues, but real tacky.

ok, I think I nid to clear my mind now. I shall NOT think abt office................................