I had a bad day yesterday. Not only was I sick....I had to bash u up. :( I am deeply hurt by my own actions, and I know I have caused permanent damage to you too. I didn't mean to, but I have lost control of myself totally......and for a moment I thought I have lost my mind, and on several occasions, I thought...I really needed some help. I broke down more often than usual...it's a lot of stress, from everywhere, including myself.

I wonder if you really understand, but, if there is one thing you could do for me, is to be there for me.

I am sorry.