A long weekend, yet I have no plans. I hvent been feeling very good, or rather very stressed. Firstly, by dance...isn't it supposed to be enjoyable? Recently no. I don't know if I lost the passion, but the answer is likely no, cos it is in my mind more often than before..so much so that it is drowning me. I feel inadequate, and I wonder why I confuse myself the more I think through the dos and donts. Sometimes, I wish I can just let go, and just dance... Enjoy the
music, the beat, and the movements of the body. Isn't it what dancing is all about? I'm splitting hair over dance... Craziness.

I m also a procrastinator. A serious one...and over time, I feel frustrated and depressed when things don't get done and pile up to an extent you'll never be able to catch up with. How how howwww to kick this habit? Writing 1001 to-do list just doesn't work, I just end up with never ending reminder notes which I just shove aside at the end of the day... And simply tell myself "don't care la!!!". This makes my life in a mess... :(

I can't seem to get enough rest. And is it due to my hectic schedule that I lost that time to take care of these seemingly small things, which prove to be detrimental to my life? I so wanna breathe...

Or is it just the mind? Too anxious that when certain things appear to take too long to complete, I simply leave it aside in order to save time and end up not doing at all... And then hate myself for being a procrastinator?

U see... The list goes on and on. Help!!!!!!


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I'm busy...packed packed packed, and I'm so tired, I need a break. I need time for myself!!!

Will be back...when I finally take a breather. :(


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Happy birthday to my mom! She is the greatest mom ever, and I just can't do without her. Call me dependent, or pampered, but yea my life will be in a mess without her.

Wishing her gd health and most imptly happy everyday!




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Competition on 1st May has officially ended and I was very affected by the results, far more than anyone could imagine. I was actually in a daze for the whole of yesterday, running through my performance in my mind now and then, and my body was of course exhausted from the dancing (I gave my 100%!) and my mind was drained. The dancing, as what I see from my video, has improved and definitely looked better than some of those placed before me. :) I am being objective. But well...only people in this circle understands why performance does not necessarily equate to results.

Nevertheless, I am glad to have my fellow dancemates from Annie's there with me. Congrats to Ranie and Eugene too...you all can do even better if you put in more effort and time. Looking forward to next week for a better performance in KL. :) I think me and sw has worked hard, and have improved, but still the body needs to go ALL THE WAY out. We have some...need more. JIA YOU!

Thanks Ranie for helping me take my video and glad my mom was there to support me too!

I am so gona stand up from this and I will come back stronger.