U're not in SG now, for two days. ONLY two days, but I felt the difference. :) After dance I'll naturally pick my phone to ring u, and u'll usually wait for me at the west coast market busstop, and we'll have some happiness supper, or just some happiness ride home. Today is different. :(

Missing u. Browsed through some msn conversations I had with you a year ago...made me laugh so hard. We're full of nonsense eh? I saw the confession conversation, and I nearly puke. hahaa. SO funny can. This entry is specially meant for u, jQ boy. Love. I happen to see this pic in my comp...i like. See you soon.

Nth very happening. I kinda like such a peaceful life. I've got things to think abt though...something to plan. :) Something that needs the planning of two pple. I'm looking forward to it. I'm happy.

I haven't met many friends these days, feeling lethargic.

I need to breathe some fresh air. *I am not feeling moody* I just felt that I need to have some time to myself, or just with someone to spend a quiet afternoon, with no program planned for the day. The ideal place I can think of is East Coast Park...but I don seem to be able to find this chance. Sometimes, your life gets so packed with stuff that you lost urself in all these activities. Sometimes, you forget why you are doing them, what was ur purpose of being at a certain place, doing certain things. At times, I felt like a slave to those activities that I willingly commit myself. Ironic it may seem, but this is what is happening to me. I don't think I feel unhappy doing all these things, but I feel like a robot just gg thru the motion, getting things done as planned in my PDA. I just need a break from this routine. I wonder if anyone feels the same as me? Not that I know of at this moment. Who has good suggestion for me? :)

Well, I have been rather happy with Sam's teaching. Btw, I spend most of the time admiring him. :P And maybe just 50% of the time concentrating on myself...wahaha. I noted that we got to really learn to FREE ourselves when dancing. This is easier said than done, and it's very abstract. Shenhong has to learn this, and me too. Our actions are too "forced", and it doesn't come naturally from the heart. I realise looking at ur partner into his eyes is a good way to improve the dance. I felt that my actions are bigger, more complete.

jQ boy: when can we ever have a day to ourselves? And no other things waiting for us...?

I think I need to get hold of myself. Beginning to lose control at work, losing control of my temper. Just getting more and more stressful these days, and I am on the verge of offending pple. Sometimes, I just want pple to leave me alone, and give me some peace......but it doesn't seem to be happening. Or, maybe I am giving myself pressure. I am my own enemy. Sigh...still, i broke down in office for the first time. And am I lucky or what...a VP (who is very close to MY VP) caught me with red and watery eyes and brought me for a walk. I don't know how my VP views this now.....I just don wanna be paranoid.

These days have been like this. Gloomy. The happiest time of the day is lunch....I have Baobei, YY and the rest, sometimes Connie. After work, i don feel like going anywhere...don feel like shopping, and don even feel like dancing. Today...I cancelled my ballroom lesson, just cos I don feel like moving. I fell sick yesterday, and was on half-day MC. Somehow, I enjoy going home straight, lie infront of the TV with family, and shutting myself from the rest of the world. I guess, it's just temporary....I hope.

Baobei has been supportive. The bimbo pouch is very nice hor? We stood at a shop at Far East Square and couldn't make up our mind which pouch to get. And we claimed that the pouch 不耐看 ... and chose sth else...and after we paid, we both looked at each other, and took the 不耐看one... haha. Nvm, we like it.

If nothing goes wrong, I should have my first Maltese this Xmas. I'm still considering...as I may not have the time to take good care of it. I am asking myself if I will go home more often, and be more homely if I have a cutie waiting for me at home. Many things to consider...I've read through many website since last year end, but I haven't come to a conclusion whether to get it or not. I am afraid of seeing it die at old age, afraid that it may have disease. Ah.....

But, from another angle, it's gona bring joy to me, (family...?? i noe mom likes small dogs, but TAME ONES). jQ says we will bring it to East Coast Park on alternate Sundays early in the morning abt 7+....then we can hava breakfast before he starts work, and b4 I do my dancing. Thinking abt that makes me feel like owning one......

Let me consider.

Driving lesson today was different, cos I drove from my house carpark at west coast to the driving centre at Ubi. *butterflies in my stomach* Nah, I wasn't scared somehow.....cos I wasn't even aware that I was going to drive directly to Ubi. Intructor came to pick me at my house at 730am (I woke up at 705, and my eyes were barely open), and the he has already put the "L" plate in front of the car. As I've guessed, he directed to the driver's seat and asked me to drive. I thought he was going to teach near my house as they weren't many cars. Before I realise or could do anything, I was already at Farrer Road, and soon...on the highway. I wonder if an "L" plate can go onto the highway in the first place?? I was driving at 90km/hr!! The fastest I went during my first 4 lessons (today was my 5th) was like...50??

BTW...i think PDL can't drive highway lor.......i must ask my instructor WHY he risked my life!!! nvm. I am still alive.

I'm feeling the blues again. Tomorrow is MONDAY. No more long weekends / holiday / leave. Am I pure lazy? Or...is work too stressful? I think it's the formal. :P Today's program's packed...so I'm gona take a nap soon, right after this. First lesson with Sam and Michelle today at 3pm, but Sam's not free. So Michelle's teaching instead. I hope to have a good start, reach 20 min earlier, hopefully we can do some warm-up b4 lesson....afterall, the fees have increased as compared to Casey, so EVERY MIN counts! Alrighty, time to go.

Going to see babes later at Kian Wee's wedding! yeepie. :)

Singapore Millenium Comp marks the end of my "stay" with SGDF. Moving out of that small circle, where the weak versus the weak, and the "not so good" remaining in the top positions, I'm starting a new chapter. It's a step taken after much consideration, and together with Shenhong, we visited Sam today. Had a talk with him, and found out that he isn't as scary as he looks. And it turns out that his voice is rather soft....wonder if he will sound the same during lesson. He claims Michelle is strict, but he's stricter.

He gave me confidence that things will get better. And I hope all goes well. Alright, update again/ I'm gg for myballroom. byeeeee