Someone told me to be brave, and be strong in pursuing my dreams. Although it doesn't come easy, and there are so many obstacles along the way, we just need to persevere. I don't know why, but it sounds sooo.....emotional. And it's been a long time since I broke down crying. I ask that someone why do I tear for dance so very often and why and why. Someone just told me...that an answer will come to me one. I dono if I can fulfill my dreams in the end, but I am willing to try and try, till I can do no more. I choose to believe that someone's words now, and I hope 1 day, I will be able to say "thanks, u are right. I made it."

May you find courage in everything u do.

Taking a break. I relook at my dance vision....and rethink abt what I want. no matter how hard I psycho myself, I still chose to stick to my choice, despite having to hurt someone. I felt that I have mission not accomplished, and I have to accomplish them... I can even feel my brain and heart aching. But I have to face it.

Only success will tell me that i have done the right thing today.

Sunday is the Sunny Low competition, and I've been practising really hard, much harder than before. I know that we have improved, and people have been telling me that too. But I am very stressed, simply because I realise improvement is not relative to ourselves, but relative to the compeititors. It all depends on how fast we improve relative to one another. SO how have the others progressed? Connie just told me that it's now not the time to think of all these, and it's time to increase our confidence level. *hee...babe is a non-dancer but she understands these* SMART.So I've got my first Ray Rose. It feels very seasoned the first time I wore it, unlike supadance / international dance. Though it's more expensive, I think it's worth it. Oh, did I mention it's 3 inches? SHenhong got a new hair do too...honestly, it looks much better now. It's call TWIST. Done by Alvin, FUNAN KIMAGE. Thanx!

Let me do my best, and give me lotsa luck.

YEAH-ness. Today I am feeling very happy, cos I knoe Fluffy is bouncing up and down and he’s got his lunch! :)

Secondly, I feel lucky cos during lunch today, I bought AVENE makeup remover for $37 which free a moisturizer worth $30+! I need moisturizer. And as I was paying at the cashier, I told Celine that I need facial cotton pad. She told me to buy at those mama shop cos it’s cheaper, and who knows the cashier asked “Would you like to purchase this at $1?” Immediately, I thought it must be some sample facial wash, BUT IT WAS ONE BIG PACK of facial cotton! Somehow, small little things can make me very happy. YEAH!

Getting that skirt from ECHO later. I hope it’s nice on me, as nice as it is on WL. *HOPE* Driving lsn in awhile (note: I AM IN OFFICE. Haha) Going into the circuit finally…license HERE I COME. Luck please

I had the most terrible night yesterday. Fluffy had diarrhoea for 8 times after dinner and he is not used to the big collar. It turns out that the collar is far too big for him. WTH. The dumb vet tortured my puppy with that damn collar, till he whines so many times. Fluffy became really weak, and he kept whining cos of stomach discomfort….I guess it must have been really painful. For a human to have > 3 times diarrhoea, it is already quite torturous. What more for a little puppy, which is only 5 mths? I can’t sleep…cos I had to put him on my mattress in case he needs anything. And indeed he kept waking up in the night and diarrhoea-ed a few times. He teared. Sigh. This morning he vomited. I can’t take anymore leave, so bf has to bring it to the vet for me, and I had to tell vet his condition through the phone. She noes I am very worried…everyone can tell. Injection was given, and med too…and the poor boy diarrhoea-ed again in the clinic. I felt troubled by what I heard.

I must thank siew lim. She has been really nice to accompany me back home and cook instant noodles for me, while I prepared lunch for my puppy. So...i bought her MAMee! :)

Thanks jQ for bringing him to the vet for me. I know that he doesn't really know how to handle a dog, what more this is a sick dog. Love u darling.

HJ called and told me she asked her colleague for advise. ^__^

Fluffy is better now. Thanks for all who helped. :)

To my dearest fluffy….

I know you are in pain when I wash your wound…I know it was itchy when you bit your wound. I know it hurts sooo much when she pushed that microchip into your body and you are screaming like mad. :’( I know….and it pains me. Sorry that you need to wear that sunflower collar which blocks your view and bangs into everything when you move. But, it’s gona be just 2 weeks, if you are good. U can’t scratch or bite on wound already, otherwise you gota wear that collar and can’t play with your lovely toys. Fluffy, rest well k? I love you!

Blogging has become a weekly event. These summarise what happened in the week:

- Celine's first day at DBS, as my fellow team mate...

- Bought a pair of blue heels at Habour Front...

- Bought ANOTHER pair of blue & white heels at Fotage with Ling

- Bought YET ANOTHER pair of brown heels at Fotage with Ling (again)

- Sucessfully joined as Fotage member (obviously)

- Brought Fluffy to the Botanical Gardens with jQ

- Lunched for the 1st time with the crazy DBS clique, laughed like mad with WL

- Celebrated Yee and Ade's bdae at Sakura / drinks at Tras Street

- Showered FLUFFY!

- Joined Facebook after ignoring dozens of invites

Work has been rather relax (very actually). Been quite stressed up by $ though....and yet buying 3 pairs of heels in 1 week. After that day, I've realise what kind of life I want to live with my the other half in the future....I was wrong previously, thinking that I can accept "that plan". I realise, if one day I were to get married, I want to bring my loved one along, care and love him for the rest of his life...simply because, he did not choose to be give his life to me, BUT i was the one bringing him back, and simple because I LOVE HIm. This week, I understood the need to be financially independent. If u want to fulfill your dreams. :)

This weekend was great. I look forward to more of such weekend. ^__^ The reason is simple. I get to spend time with my loved ones. Little Fluffy, jQ boy, Jiana…did things for myself too.

I bought these……..
- 2 mango cardigans
- 2 mango t-shirts
- simple loop earrings
- black stylish watch :P $12 only haha!
- signed up for Planet Fitness

Well, Saturday was great…bathed Fluffy. Went out shopping with Na again, I am afraid it’s gona be a weekly routine soon. *broke* Lesson at Sam’s, and out for supper at Holland V with jQ. Woke up very early on Sunday, and brought Fluffy along to Ang Mo Kio shop. Poor Fluffy can’t take long rides la, he puked again. Second time after the ride in Connie’s car. Waited for jQ in the car for almost 2 hours, and Fluffy slept in my arms for the entire period…I felt sooooo blissful. Den it was Vivo, where I signed up for gym with jQ. Den it was ballroom and night was spent in Bugis.

:( it rained on Sunday. Otherwise I will bring Fluffy to Botanical Gardens. I shall do it tml.

At home...
Not very motivated to do anything. Changing the bedsheet took me 1 week.
Paying my overdue ocbc credit card bill took me 2 weeks, and it's still not happening yet.
Paying my starhub bills took me...1 mth, and I've lost the statement. Yet to call starhub to check. Disgusted, yes. Ting has been very laid back.

Shopping? Not very enthu, cos I feel tired walking, and finances are tight. Bored with my wardrobe, but it's not the time to change. No money. Tried to watch dvd at jQ's house, but fell asleep. Just too tired. Energy boosters please...

jQ's moving to a new shop at AMK, it's 4 times bigger than the current place and has more parking space. Business on track...and I'm happy for him. Is this a tough time for us? I guess, no, unless I make a fuss out of it. Thoughts are rather random again, but I wanna say that Fluffy's the best present. Accompanying me when I'm down. *Opps, he just bit my nose.*

Haven't met up with friends recently. I'm finding more and more difficult to cope with my schedule, hopefully I can sit down and plan my time properly. I'll do that. Otherwise, things will become a mess again, and the mood will definitely be affected. *Today's Teresa's last day, and I'm not in office...*

ok, let's see what I've got this week. Dance on Fri night, dance on Sat night, Dance on Sun evening, and dinner with Dance Dynamix ppl in the night. What's left is Saturday/Sunday daytime. Sunday's for jQ cos business' close on Sundays, Saturday morning's for Fluffy *shower shower*. Then friends on Sat? Shall I do some shopping? After dance on Sat? Shall I go for some drinks? Well....I am thinking too much, am I? There must be a reason for how I am feeling now, but what??