FEEL THE BEAT: July 2006

Cancelled all my plans today....had 2 weeks worth of sleep today. Reallly exhausted from the sleepless nights for the past few weeks. Soo, din go for Shawn's bdae lunch, decided to change plans to next week. This morning called him to tell him I'll be late, and ended up he told me he sleeping, and why not we continue sleeping until we wake up den go for dinner. Haha...but I can't make it lar, cos of dance lesson at night. So in the end we decided to just sleeeeep. And I missed Hot Yoga too.....sobz. I'm gg next week! Soo I woke up at 4 +, feeling giddy. Very happy to see mama again, like....I think I haven talked to her for a long time, though we stay under the same roof. Sad many lar...this job is causing some harm to my family time! Say bye bye...I have decided. Mama cooked hotpot fish head, and it was yummy!! but I guess it was my 1st meal, so couldn't take much, mama thought it was not nice. No...is was deliciious!

Then it was ballroon lesson. And...hell, I cried again. The second time this week...am I just plain moody or am I unlucky? Competition is just round the corner, and teacher was extremely disappointed with Desmond's attitude, find us irresponsible and disappointing...all his hard work went down the drain. I know exactly how he is feeling...and I am disappointed too, and sorry for hurting him soo much. He dotes on me alot...and wants us to shine...we are given sucha chance to learn...why are we not cherishing it when we still can, when we are still young? If training hard and winning can make him happy...I am willing to do so. I really want him to be happy, and I really wish we can do well, for our own sake as well as for him. He pins high hopes on us....Desmond, please try and think over how u can cope with these things. Let's be responsible, and think for others...and be thoughtful, ok?

Tomorrow is another full day of dance, gona reach early to practise first. Shan't be late, if not shenhong is gona scold me. Den it will be Ballroom lesson....till 7. Urgh, tiring....

*I miss u...see u tml...hugs*

i AM back!!!!

*baby bear....lurve*

It's the end of MAYBANK, at least for the main audit. Financial statements are out....and the admin stuff is wad is left of it, I tHInk. I AM NOT interested. Monday marks the start of my one week seniors course.....yeah. Slacking time? I love to take course with my lovely babes....hope me and yy won't laugh hilariously in front of instructors again. ~More updates on the course soon!~

Soo...end of Maybank is sucha relief. I am sooo stressed, cos I need sleep soo soo much. And I dOOn't get it. And waking up early in the morning is sucha chore. But I will miss the team...never ever in my engagement have I ever met sucha crazy team. It is really out of my expectation. They all look so serious, but when night falls.....xxxxxx. Only WE noe wad WE mean, right? Loo Loo and Bin Bin, Big & Small Ting Ting and roYroy...? Still, I don wana step into that ANG MO KIO maybank centre again. The client is such an idiot. That MXXLEN made me cry. Slap her lar....ask her everything, she goes "how will we knoe??". Ask somemore, she says " I dono wad's ur problem now...". DIscuss for another 5 min....she goes "I TOLD U......................!!!" Btw, she is a bitch, at least for the day. PMS lah...slap her! I shld have taken a photo of her ugly face and post it here, so that u ppl can help me bash her up *erm...be careful of the PC screen though* Soo...I left the client's place with tears in my eyes...and you came to pick me to office. Wanted to act...but i burst out crying for abt 5 min? I think it's the first time i am bullied soo badly by the client...they even complained...I WANNA QUIT lah. bye bye shitty work. You were really sweet...thanks for the baby bear. I love her.....and u too.

*we got durians to eat at maybank carpark!*

*hunky hunky biNbIn...I like~~ hahahha*

*look at his constipated look*

*this is in the office....KPMG. lalala. It's almost 5am when i took this....*

hmm...I had the happiness dinner tonight, over the past 1 mnth, with my baobei LINgLinG. Too bad...my conniebabe is not here. nm, HOT YOGA tml!! Gona celebrate shawn's bdae for him tml too....arrrgh, HuiJing gg back MSIA! nah, we meet again when u come back. NEXT week's gona be heaven. LEt's gooo shopping and temple together girl!! Orh, ya, i was at my dinner. So ling and me had korean food (arrgh, me and shawn having korean food tml AGAIN)...i shld just quit and get a job in that restaurant. Den...we were very very full, but I INSisT gg for a drink at coffee club, cos it's MY first early day ler!! *erm...i left office at 9pm lar...earLy??* And this clumsy ting has to sweep my untouched strawberry smoothie onto the ground. And have to pay double the amount to get a new drink. rooooaaaaarrrrrrrr! oh ya, i think my brain abit slow nowadays. When i broke the glass, I din even noe wad happened...and had NO reaction, but to just stare at the mess on the ground, while Ling scREaMED in front of me. EVERYONE in the vincinity turned to look at us....i hate this. kill me please, thanks alot.

*ling ling smile is soo sweet in this photo - SEE THAT SMOOTHIE??*

Arrgh, i am stressd. I've neglected my dance, for a long long time. Sorry partners. latin comp on the 26th...ballroom on the 27th...and my dance is a piece of shitty shit. It's okie.....gona put in TONNES of effort this week. MY BIRTHDAY is coming........lalalala......i wan i wan i wan present! and lots of LOVE LOVE LOVE! tata, off to bed. *happiness*

I've got no time, no money, no sleep, no dance, no mood. I've got PIMPLES, NUMBERS, and miserable LAYS POTATO chips now. We had durians tt night......just outside maybank, at the carpark. Nah, anyway, I don't feel like commenting abt my work. I feel sick of it now.

I need ATTENTION. give me give me.......! shower me with presents please.
or just ... give me food.

I am gg to enjoy my this weekend. I MUST. bye....EVERYONE, tingting's bdae is just round the corner!! I wan presents!

*I am feeling just a little disappointed now* I don't like to be upset, but I am. Why am I like that this week? I feel so weak, I feel so dependent. I feel lousy. Just...I waited for tonight....could have agreed either ktv or mahjong with my MayBank khakis tonight since we end work EaRLy (like....1045pm??). But I have made my night availabe...which i AM SPENDING blogging now. Never mind, blogging is FUN!!! *I'm gona be fine...^_^*

I missed my cousin's house warming..! I missed my dance too! *sobz* cos of work lar..... Manager was early today. EARLIER than me and royroy lor. Shit many. And today was spent fighting fire...oh, but can i say, I AM proud of my team?!? I love them. Really helpful, fun, and efficient...AND dirty-minded. Finally...we are near the end of the tough period. Finally checking financial statement figures! Please tell me...why why why must there be soo many figures? WHO THE HELL created financial statements?! And why why why....must TINGTING be checking the fisgures? Why...must I pop my eyeballs just trying to get those figures to tie? AND why...must there be FRS39? *enuff* no whys.

Had nice jap dinner at this seletar eating place. wowwww...i lurve me SOBA set. Dinner was nice...and cosy...and crappy again. My stomach is bloated with all the wind that I swallowed while laughing. Xue Bin's laughter reminds me of some perverted rapist. HAHA. duh~~ Orh, then we went to this mama shop which looks like a pet shop. Indeed...we found a super duper cutie doggie. I love the way it just lies on the floor fast asleep. It feels sooo soft too...i can't take my eyes off it. I am not the only one lar. Snr Irene and Yuting were busy taking doggie's photo too...! Nah...den it was back to work...but we ended UP not working. I played "typing of the dead" and irene played her solitaire. And the rest were walking up n down the entire room. Roy Roy keep gg to the toilet...he claims that his big business and small business cannot do at ONE go...weird system huh...we decided to go home!! yeepie......but gg back TML again. Urgghz. Bye bye...I am gona sit at one corner to sulk for the rest of my night. I am upset.

*My desk full of rubbish*

*ChIps from IRENE*

*see it?? love love DOGGIE*

*Ah Lian in the MaMa shop*

*Ah Lian Irene...and ghostly YuTing*

~enjoy your meet-up~

Ashed babe has just given me ONE piece of orange. sooo i shall love her too......*duh* sooooo this is that silly babe.... and YA, she just STUFFED another piece into my TINY little mouth....heeee...*not that tiny la*, just tt hers is A LITTLE under-sized. Oh, and again i think it's not tt her mouth is small, but her FACE is big and ROUND. *Clapssss*

Sooo, Ashed babe and I went to get this nice little box for u.....it's refillable..... :P Ashed babe got her SOMEONE SOMETHING toooo!!!!! grrrrrrrrrr...........not sure who it is for LAH. Haha, ask me ask me!

Had a good lunch with her at this kopitiam. Had nice nice prawn mee, and lousy chrysanthemum. Argh.....BYE BYE. post again. gg Maybank later.

*Happy 3 months...loves*

Just back from work, it's amazing how I can tahan such long hours these days....soo, went off for dance at 630 and came back to office at 9. I AM a SUPERWOMAN~~*clap x 100* So, things are fixed, gona compete in Lion City comp on 26th Aug and set off for KL on the very same day. KL comp on 27th....yah, I AM A SUPERWOMAN wooooh hoooo...not much hopes for Ballroom this time. It's my VIRGIN comp for the novice category. Just wish tt I do my steps alright~ Dance was good today, teacher seems to be very satisfied. I could tell :P Did out Quickstep again...I like running around lidat. The steps were not as difficult as they look. The aunties and uncles were sooo impressed seeing us hop hop here hop hop there, fearful tt we might fall anytime. But frankly speaking.....WE LOOK UGLY. Bleeeeh. work harder.....

Oh, I must praise myself for being sooo efficient. I'm done with my work!! NO more outstanding...no piling of work, no laziness. I lurve myself big time...hee. anywaysss...ROYROY stole that chocolate pocky I bought for u!! Ang-z many!

*rOyrOy! return me MY POCKY!*

Luckily we had my herbal chicken for lunch @ AMK central. yummy!

*all eaten UP*

*see? The whole table was filled with the same dish*

My TeAm-Mates are CRAZY!

MayBank AMK is now my official second home....I lurve my teammates actually, sooo funny lah. My senior is an AH LIAN. I asked her 做不完怎么办？ She says 屁股裂两半! The job was damn tiring, but having these monkeys around made it so much better. I shall post some photos of these apes and chimpanzees soon. Normal working hours are from 10am to 12am! And ppl get crazier and crazier as the hours go by. We start to discuss balance sheet and P/L items using HOKKIEN and broken cantonese, we start to become uncivilised. Roy Roy never stopped saying he needs to go 大便 and lao sai, and that his diarrhoea caused his xxxx to tear. *grrrr* Me and my AH LIAN senior strive to be yu4 nu3, but they say....it's not 玉....but 欲....hahaz. We breakfast together, lunch together, dinner together, supper together, snack to together, get pimples together, get stressed together, get arrowed together...........................i gona miss them. NOT THE JOB. I must thank Xue Bin for filling my water bottle EVERYDAY without fail...and roy roy for his CRAPPy jokes every MINUTE. Oh, and Yuting mei mei for her help.....

*thanks for bringing me for food....u made my day....*

i'm TiReD...

I'm sooo tired. jUst came back...and sent my work to snr...Din forGet my bloggie though. Say HI!!
Duh... i am crazy.

*come on, cheer up girl* Things happen in this world....it's a matter of how u choose to see things. Ur mind is very powerful...it makes u see things the way u want. Ur mind can choose to see bright side of things or the bad side of it. when will happiness come to u?

I wish u luck in ur dance...i wish u luck in ur work....i wish u luck in finding ur happiness, the TRUE happiness. I wish u are free of worries. I wish u are back to urself again.

ten reasons why we NID to change our dance partners:
1) He is getting too OLD for us
2) U are losing the FEEL for him
3) He is losing the FEEL for u
4) He never changes his costume
5) He never changes his look
6) He never thinks he is wrong
7) He never wanted to learn from others
8) He never wanted to groom himself for practise
9) He never praises his partner when she makes an effort to look good
10) Dancing with HIM is no longer happy

*this guy wanna strip lar*

Danced today~ woo hoo, so many arnd....made me Sooo high. I always practise harder with ppl arnd. Craziness today, we did a formation dance by dancing in a circle with all different steps and movements. the aunties were staring at us...and laughing~ horribly horribly boliao. That stupid guy wanted to flash himself with "sex bomb", duh~~ please train up first!! haha...save my eyes. I love my ADIDAS shoe...luckily I din get that pink one. Shenhong's bad goes better with my outfit today and I forced him to carry my bag (damn sissy can...), while i sling on to his.

*CLEO new cover girl*

Brought mommy to katong laksa after settling our RELIGIOUS matters.... i still think the laksa taste better than tt one opposite....you keep saying i am BIAS.... *hmmmph* i love to see u sweat, woo hoo....

Soo, yesterdae was tiring....worked in the morning till 2pm. btw, BaoBei Ling and ConnieBabe are soooo horrible. They got me jealous by calling me damn may times, putting me on the speaker from office. U just wan to show me tt u 2 are enjoying ur time with each other without me rite? I have a big heart...i have my YANRONG and ASHLEY....no more baobei and babe liaoz. I angry many~ u better make up for my misery by gettin me my GUCCI. thanks. U picked me from AMK and we went for late lunch at TPY, foodie was good! Looked for adidas shoes at queensway for the whole afternoon, and u got the WRONG size! pray that u feet continues to grow lah...but anywae, it is not tt bad...I've got good taste. The color is nicer than that GOLD one..... *wink* Then it was korean food at Taka....bully me, and I want to eat korean food EVERYday...and force tt kimchi down ur throat. Ended with Kbox...which sux. NO MORE kbox...I want partyworld. say bye bye to kbox... argh...k, i wanna slp. Bye.

*we bargain & got it at $83*

*see that KIMCHI...wooo*

*the LeFtovers...kimchi kimchi I LOVEEE*

ShiTtY ShiTTY JOB!

I am drowning! Drowning in this pool of shit~ For three consecutive days, been gg home at 12 am, sleeping at 2 or 3 am, and waking up at 8....I can even dream of those reconciliation reports. Yesterday morning was horrifying, I couldnt open my eyes in the morning but still was a good girl, and decided to WAKE UP, take train to YCK den cab down to the client's place from the train station. So i reached YCK train station @ 945 and waited for cab till 1030! walk also reach liao OK.... *urrrrgh* den my insurance agent sms me, reminded me of our meeting....HE IS MY SAVIOUR! i screamed into the phone, i bet he thinks i am such a bitch.....tld him to pick me up inmmediately. And yup, efficient he was, he reached in less than 5 min. WOoHHooo..... I was yelling and cursing and swearing the whole journey to the client's place. Poor Ryan~pick a bitch up early in the morning just to hear her swear. Hahahaaaaaa......*not funny actually*

Work work work work work.....i want sleep, NOW. i wan shopping, NOW. I wan dance, NOW. I wan everything NOW!!! and NO WORK please............................

*bye* back to work. I hate this. Please bring me shopping tml~ I want my adidas pink sneaker....and my sweater....I WANT!!! *whineeey*

Back At WORK...LouSy MayBank~

*I love this Bottle...so small and cute*

Yeh, I'm back at AMK MayBank...my second home. So...it was yet another day full of tight dealines. Today is 5th ya? I've got DEADlines on the 7th and 8th....HOW HOW HOW to do, with this puny little brain of mine? I've got to buck up, and get up earlier....in case i gota take the damn cab again. Hmmmm....$10 salary, $5 go to cabby?

I like yesterdae night~
1) Katong Laksa - I promise I won't tell mama....cos u asked me not to! but again, taking painkillers made my stomach kinda weird....din manage to eat much. We'll go to the opp stall next time hor.......

2) Parkway Parade - Looking for that HAIRLESS teddy of the right size, but can't find. *sobz* Got Hammy's bathroom and bathing salt....that creature hasn't bathed for a long long time. I love this PooH bottle, thank yOu~ Got G.A.R.Y's CD too! SUPERWOMAN...yeah!

3) Marina South - Silly...my BishiBashi again lar....Photohunt & Matchup, haha.....my eyes nearly dropped out lar~

4) HOMe! - Waited for that damn creature to ROLL in the sand, which it chose not to. I wonder why....is the sand toooo coarse? It used to roll... *hmmm* Had soup which Mum made....and we secretly threw the 料 away...*luckily mom doesn't blog*...Phew!

BACK TO WORK! gona dance later at radin mas, and most prob coming back HERE for more work. tatatataa~

2nd Day of MC~ and Still HURTING

I reckon I had too much sleep the previous days....my BioLogicAL Clock woke me up at 10 these two days....wad a surprise! I could sleep till 2 or 3 pm in the past if no one wakes me up. Am I getting OLD? Had coco crunch with milk for breakfast...not feeling hungry but I NEED TO take my painkillers....i feel so weird with a big big hole in my gum....and I hate that feeling of emptiness. Forget abt my nonsense, i am just plain whiny. *sobZ* Yeah! I read NEWSPAPERS...w/o falling asleep...

Btw, got my bonus, but I have decided to postpone ALL my "wish-list" to the future...I simply need money in my account! I need need need!!! I am broke.....no more prada wallet, no more gucci wallet, no more furniture (erm...i mean not at the moment, BUT wait for me IKEA!). But say "yes" to my canon ixus 65! I think i want u....or shld i get ixus 60? tell me please....

*I am bored at HOme* waiting for u to pick me for dinner. MY wound still hurts....